I'm Not Malaysian 佐 Meh?

since young our parents and teachers send us to school and educate us to the best learning institutes whichever that they can afford. we learned to spell our names, sing national anthems and recite Rukun Negara. so that when we grow up we will become a proud Malaysian and serve the nation which had nurtured our soul and mind. hence wherever i go, who ever i talked to, i stood up proud and tell all the motherfuckers out there - yes, i m a Malaysian, so don't fuck with me with your international nonsenses. Twin tower is expensive, redundant and economically meaningless, but so what - i love it, its my country's PRIDE you assholes !


maybe i was wrong, i have over sentimentalized my nationalism and patriotism. i trusted in "Kepercayaan kepada tuhan dan Negara," and i believed paying tax on time, woke up early to vote and stopped bribing polices is a good virtue and exercised my duty as a truely Malaysian. i think i am Malaysian, because my IC say so, my Passport say so, my drug addict father and tax paying prostitute grandma told me so. ah well, i have forgotten my nationality is not what i claim it to be, apparently i have forgotten to seek for someone's approval and endorsement before i can call my self a Malaysian.

吊咯ma hai... I am scared because my Negara looks like Tak Percaya me already. I am suffering from identity crisis, is like waking up suddenly becoming someone whom i have no idea who i was and is, it's a Borne Identity Ultimatum - reality show live broadcasting now. i wish i can run up the hill and cry out to the heaven asking the question "who am I !" like Jacky Chan did after wrecking his brand new EVO Lancer in turkey, but i dont wan to be high exposed sohai like them. i rather keep it low and blog the shit out of my thoughts as ordinary chicken shit blogger does best. My Optimus Prime & Deputy Prime Minister say i am Malaysian, don't so gun jiong - relak sikit. Bkt Bendera party Cheif say I am not - oh, sorry he SAY he SAID wasn't Malaysian woh. then he Tew-ing the poor journalist bitch reported wrongly tim, hey brother, you cant blame her, she just want to know if she is Malaysian also mah.


so am I a Malaysian jek? i don't know 佐, maybe i need to wait for them to tell me, for the time being, i think i still have to wait and call my self an "Emigrant" or "Alien"

so do i have to pay tax this year leh? :-P